“The first step is always the hardest.”
Cliche isn’t it? I’m fighting the urge to roll my eyes even though I’m writing it! It sounds like one of the things people say to respond like they’re listening, but to ultimately end the conversation like “I’m tired of hearing you complain about this… do it already, or don’t, just please pipe down already!” Regardless, the cliche is true. Especially with writing.
I’ve traveled years to write this post, and many of you (out of my three followers) may be asking, who are you to be giving writing advice? Just a few weeks ago, I would’ve been asking the same question. Today though, I have an answer; I’m a writer.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not yet a Sophie Kinsella by any means, but I’m passionate. I used to be afraid. Who knew there could be “trauma”, in a loose sense of the word, related to writing, but there is… and it’s taken me years to get passed it. I had to move forward to start getting started.
How did I do this? Well, I got tired of using the “trauma” as an excuse. When it would be introduced into a conversation I felt petty, and, well, lame. “Here we go again” I would think, while I told you the story of how the world hurt me and how others even justified my resistance toward writing now! Once I realized it began to take more energy to stay stuck than to move forward, I stopped talking about it, I stopped using it.
So, the first step I took was deciding it was time to stop being a big ol’ baby and I started looking up writing classes. I landed on Gotham Writers because of their reputation, the amazing faculty they’ve compiled, and they have online classes. I took a fantastic course with Tom Brennan and thus began my journey.
In a email conversation, I shared with Tom that I was a private person, and ultimately didn’t want to post in the way that bloggers sort of need to post. His response began with the words “I’m a private person too…” and a chord was struck.
I had always thought that to be a writer, a good writer, a great writer, you had to be an “open book”. Knowing Tom’s impressive resume I was surprised that he called himself a private person. Thus this aspect about writing, was re-written. The fear I carried was that if you judged my writing, you judged me; if you hated my writing, you hated me. This isn’t true. The wall is broken down, and the writer in me is free once more!
Today, I choose to move forward. Today, I actively write. Today, I call myself a writer.